2012 is in 1 week left before it ends. The new year is near and I can't wait to live a better life next year. I want to change everything. I want to be happy, forget the past, cry less, study hard, throw all these sorrow and sadness that I used to it. I'm tired with all of this. There's no use anymore, he left. I just wish him a very good luck in his new life, may he meet someone better. :') I will love him forever. And I wish he won't forget me. That's all I want from him. Even though it hurts like someone has pouring salts in my cuts. I'll move on and be happy. That's all. I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY.
Tuesday 25 December 2012
Monday 17 December 2012
Pain in heart will never heal
You were live in a happy family, they always love you, support you and you live like you're the most happy person in the world. When you was child, you wish you will grow up faster so you can make your family happy. But when you grew old, it's getting shittier and shittier. Every moment have to be so complicated to face all the problems, even worse, you're getting tired with your life. You're jealous to see some people grow old without problems but you, you feel like you want to kill yourself. Most painful moment is when you met someone that once being strangers and now mean the world to you.. He made you smile non-stop, he made you happy, he spent some time and some nights just to talk to you and you feel so special. Isn't ? But it's really worst to realize that you mean nothing to him, you'd knew he didn't love you, he never did. Isn't that awful ? Until one day, he being like a stranger again. He don't want to talk to you, he don't want to see you, he didn't smile to you anymore and therefore, you feel useless and you ask yourself what's been happened to you both. He make you meaningless, unwanted, and nothing. And he also taught you to give up, to just move on. But sometimes, you can't force yourself to do that cause it's hard. No one ever knows how it feels, you look so pathetic but you still waste your tears on him. You don't know what to do anymore, you feel lost. It's like something has beating you, killed you, threw gun to your heart. You feel weak and has no life. But you realize, that you were living in a dark world, no happiness and no love. You have to move on and start it again but you just can't. That's us. Every girl's feeling, every girl's heart, every girl's secret, every girl's experience. All you can do is, stay strong, fake a smile, and move on even though it keeps hurting you. There 's nothing you can do unless God has spoken to take your life.
The future
Friday 7 December 2012
Friends will never fade away
Assalamualaikum ! Hi again readers :) I'm back. It's been a long time I didn't update my blog. Well, here I start my new post.
This month is the last month of 2012, and it means January 2013 will coming soon. Insya-Allah :) Can't believe I'll be 16 soon and I can't even believe that it's been a long time I didn't meet my classmates and my schoolmates. I miss them so much. 2012 is the most meaningful year to me, because I have so much memories with my friends especially during pasca ! Damn it's really awesome! Kami sekelas sudah macam adik-beradik. Kami have fun sama-sama, discuss sama-sama even ada sedikit pergelutan disetiap discussion kami. Hahaha tapi itu pun jadi kenangan yg paling terindah. I miss you guys so much! Can't wait to see you again this 19th December which PMR result akan keluar. Gosh :\ harap-2 lah saya dapat result yg gempak. Tolong laaaaa
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