2012 is in 1 week left before it ends. The new year is near and I can't wait to live a better life next year. I want to change everything. I want to be happy, forget the past, cry less, study hard, throw all these sorrow and sadness that I used to it. I'm tired with all of this. There's no use anymore, he left. I just wish him a very good luck in his new life, may he meet someone better. :') I will love him forever. And I wish he won't forget me. That's all I want from him. Even though it hurts like someone has pouring salts in my cuts. I'll move on and be happy. That's all. I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY.
Tuesday 25 December 2012
Monday 17 December 2012
Pain in heart will never heal
You were live in a happy family, they always love you, support you and you live like you're the most happy person in the world. When you was child, you wish you will grow up faster so you can make your family happy. But when you grew old, it's getting shittier and shittier. Every moment have to be so complicated to face all the problems, even worse, you're getting tired with your life. You're jealous to see some people grow old without problems but you, you feel like you want to kill yourself. Most painful moment is when you met someone that once being strangers and now mean the world to you.. He made you smile non-stop, he made you happy, he spent some time and some nights just to talk to you and you feel so special. Isn't ? But it's really worst to realize that you mean nothing to him, you'd knew he didn't love you, he never did. Isn't that awful ? Until one day, he being like a stranger again. He don't want to talk to you, he don't want to see you, he didn't smile to you anymore and therefore, you feel useless and you ask yourself what's been happened to you both. He make you meaningless, unwanted, and nothing. And he also taught you to give up, to just move on. But sometimes, you can't force yourself to do that cause it's hard. No one ever knows how it feels, you look so pathetic but you still waste your tears on him. You don't know what to do anymore, you feel lost. It's like something has beating you, killed you, threw gun to your heart. You feel weak and has no life. But you realize, that you were living in a dark world, no happiness and no love. You have to move on and start it again but you just can't. That's us. Every girl's feeling, every girl's heart, every girl's secret, every girl's experience. All you can do is, stay strong, fake a smile, and move on even though it keeps hurting you. There 's nothing you can do unless God has spoken to take your life.
The future
Friday 7 December 2012
Friends will never fade away
Assalamualaikum ! Hi again readers :) I'm back. It's been a long time I didn't update my blog. Well, here I start my new post.
This month is the last month of 2012, and it means January 2013 will coming soon. Insya-Allah :) Can't believe I'll be 16 soon and I can't even believe that it's been a long time I didn't meet my classmates and my schoolmates. I miss them so much. 2012 is the most meaningful year to me, because I have so much memories with my friends especially during pasca ! Damn it's really awesome! Kami sekelas sudah macam adik-beradik. Kami have fun sama-sama, discuss sama-sama even ada sedikit pergelutan disetiap discussion kami. Hahaha tapi itu pun jadi kenangan yg paling terindah. I miss you guys so much! Can't wait to see you again this 19th December which PMR result akan keluar. Gosh :\ harap-2 lah saya dapat result yg gempak. Tolong laaaaa
Friday 30 November 2012
Hello December
Assalamualaikum ! Hi again readers :) Today is 1st December and just 4 weeks from now on until school will be re-open back. Omg can't wait :D And along this month, I will make a change. I want to diet -__- I look so fat right now! Ughh I hate myself so much and I want to get taaaaaalllllllllllllllllllll hahahaha I'm so short lehh ;(
Goodbye, November
Assalamualaikum ! Hi again readers :) Today I update a post about our last day of November. As we all know, 2012 is the most fastest year. I still remember the time I being a form 3 student. And now, we all move on to the new page of our book life. Today is the last day of November and tomorrow is December. At the same time, PMR result will out on this month. Yow it's scaring me so much T_T I wish I was dreaming.. Last but not least, GOODBYE, NOVEMBER !
I miss everything in my life
Assalamualaikum ! :) Hi blogger, nice to meet you again. It's been a long time I didn't log in my blog. Well,
there's so much things happened in my life and most of it, I miss it so much. The holiday has already started and just a few weeks the school will be re-opened back. And I really can't wait. I have so much to plan next year, I want to change everything. PMR has done and Alhamdulillah it's perfectly fine. All I can do right now, sit on sejadah and raise my hand for du'a. Yes, I just can pray right now while wait for my result. And I'm freaking nervous, anxious, curious but afraid to know and I'm afraid if I disappoint everybody. My family, my friends, my teachers and myself. Recently, I heard about the grade of PMR for 2012 will be increased and that's freaking me outttt ! I often pray to Allah, may the KPM decrease the grades since the questions are some difficult and some are easy. I expect for the worst but wish for the best. I target 5A or 6A. InsyaAllah. :) And oh ya, I'm gonna miss someone. Someone that means so much to me. He's already left my school and maybe, just maybe, we'll never gonna see again. I just wish him a very good luck and all the best in his life. I wish he'll find someone better, someone that will teach him about true love, someone that will change his life, make him happy, and always smile. And most of all, I wish he will never forget me. :( Actually, it's really hard to let go of someone who mean the world to you, who wake you up from your worst nightmare, bring that smile and laughter again after tears wasted so much during the nights. It might be hard this time, but insyaAllah, the wound will heal someday. :)
Well, that's all for now. Salam..
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